Sometimes, they said we have to keep the happiness come. Sometime, they said we have to make one. But they don't realize that happiness cannot be make and cannot be wait. It comes, naturally. Why do some people, if they are in happy mood they said they've made happiness? I presume that doesn't mean she's smiling she's happy. Doesn't mean they are not crying they are happy. Have you ever felt that kind of feeling, that feeling when you felt nothing. Neither happy nor sad. It's peace-ness. If you do realize that you are in that kind of moment, you will feel that something will come knocking without realizing what it is, loneliness. Mine is not like yours, mine is different. You know why i love studying? Because in some times, i can create my own space & my priority is just stuffs i'm studying. For just a second, i can forget all those things and something that have been messing up in my mind. I do smile, I do laugh. But at some point, my loneliness will be here. Inside of me, forever. I'm sad and sadly I can't help. Yay.