Lies, they're everywhere. It's hurt, it's so painful & you have no idea how to remove it, how to make it stop. That's what I don't want to talk with anybody, someone that I might be fall in love with. I don't want to fall in love, I don't want to feel the love. I just, I don't want. Because I know, it don't last. & I am trying really hard not to fall in love. Not to cry & hurt & sit in the corner & depressed & self-harmed. I don't want to feel that again. Someday, I'll fall in love. But, not now. Yep, I do feel jealous sometimes when I see my friends sitting with their boyfriends & laugh. I keep telling myself this; ''maybe one day you'll find somebody who's worth waiting, worth fighting, worth crying, worth to be someone in your heart. It's okay to stand alone, at least you're not hurting anymore.'' I had enough. I want to know about Islam more deeply & closely, I want to know about myself, I want to be the one that my parents would say; ''Oh, she's my daughter & I'm so proud of her.'', I want to know myself, I want to feel who it feels to be alone, I want to love myself, I want to hate myself, I want to travel the world, I want to be the one who's holding 5As UPSR, 8As PMR, 9As SPM & sparkles As in my results, I want to do all these thing above & I promise you, I'll start to fall in love again. Hihi.