I keep pushing people away, or it's jst people keep distancing from me? I don't know. I am so alone & I can feel that. My life, it's such a mess. My friends? I don't knw, maybe they are ashamed because having me that's why they left. I'm just fat, i'm not rich, i'm not smart enough & I'm not good enough. People I care, people I love, they left me. I' tired of being alive. I'm not asking for sympathies or compliments or friends or what. Who would be inlove with me? that's obviously stupid. Haha, whatever. Tmrw is monday, school day. I'll just faking smiles, pretending that everything is fine & be ok.