I got it. The conclusion of everything is be happy. If you want to be happy, just be happy. Smile & be happy. That's all. Because nobody could make you happy with the exception of yourself. Maybe you laugh at their jokes, smile at them & make them happy. But, the only one who let you happy is you. Have you ever heard this; ''your joke is funny but i don't like you so i won't laugh''. Well it's obvious that only you can make yourself happy or sad. Don't put your key of happiness on someone else's pocket. It does not worth. Don't let they know you're hurting because they probably don't care or maybe never do. Don't give someone sanctification of watching you suffer. Maybe you can tell them your story & be grieve but the ugly truth is; they never know how it feels like. How it feels to be you. How it feels when sadness come & destroy everything. They might say; ''I've felt it before.'' But what they have felt is now gone, so they no longer feel that.
But the One who feels everything inside you & who can heal it is Allah. Tell Allah everything because He is the only One who can heal the pain. People can't. Knee down & pray to Allah, He always there & He always listen. Be patient. So don't depend your happiness on someone. I'm not happy either, but I'm not letting sadness win. Keep your head up. Allah is testing you because He loves you.