I hope you're reading this, special entry for you. Special place for you, for last. InsyaAllah, this is last. No promises. Yesterday, I read all those your texts & listen to your voice. (which I recorded it) I really miss the old of us, really. Do you remember when I can't sleep at night & you was there for me? Dodoikan, tell me that you are there hug, forehead kisses. I still remember when you said to me you'll always love me no matter what, you'll always be there for me, you love me forever & always. When you asked me to go out, movie day, I'm sorry I can't. I'm sorry I can't be the one you want, I'm sorry. Everyday, I miss you. Every second, I miss you. But I can't call you, cause I know you'll annoy of me. I still remember you face, your eyes, you cute face, your little dimples, your cute smile, your silly voice, your voice when you said you're worried about me, your voice telling me you love me, your existence, your hair. I still remember & it's hurt. Silly prince, I miss you & I love you. You're the one & only person I've loved this much & cared too much. I'm blinded, because you're everything I see. Sayang, why you chase another girl? Why? I'm here, love you with my heart. I still remember when you said to me, sayang. You called me mine. My friends said you're such a sweet talker, but believe in me you're not. Yeah, you're such a perfect boy, really. Eventho you've hurt me many times, I still love you. Now, with all my heart & tears, I let you go. And please never come back & never look back. Ya Allah, I do miss him. But I'm not a perfect girl for him, I can't be perfect for him. But I love him so much. Too much than I could imagine. Laugh at me, call me lame, call me weak, yes I am. Ya Allah, I still remember your voice singing to me, ''get out, get out, get out of my head. And fall into my arms instead. I don't, I don't don't know what it is. But I need that one thing, & you've got that one thing. And Athirah, the one thing is your heart. I love you.'' I'm sorry cause remember. I'm sorry. Thank you for leaving me, prince of my heart.