Had fight with my lovely mum is fucked up. Another fucked up night, just same shit but this time it's getting worser. I'd tried to call him, but he rejected my call!! You know what I'm thinking about, you know. He doesn't want to talk with me. And this is so fucking freaking sad, how am I gonna look tomorrow? How. Teach me how. Lonely tonight, sleeping alone. In a paper, my mom said ''I'm sorry I couldn't be a better mom for you, I'm sorry for hurting you.'' Tears streaming down my face, really. Hard. I need someone to talk to, but no one. No. It is hard. I can't stand, but I have to. So tonight, I go to bed with a broken heart & really really down. Goodnight.